My mind is full of other people’s activities. I’m seeing and hearing lot of divisions between people over issues of racism, politics and pandemic plights. I have to remind myself not to get distracted or wrapped up in these activities. I can spend lots of time scrolling through my phone, scrolling through YouTube channels and TV channels as well all with people in the room or on Zoom with me. If I’m not careful to pay attention I might miss opportunities to be present, just listen, show love and respect, give honor to a deserving person, be challenged or be inspired. Being present while living this life on pitch is important because once we are gone that’s it. I know that God is in control of everything and does not need to be updated like we do. God hears, sees and knows. He is with us so that relieves me from having to figure out everybody and every issue. Live and forgive I say, and stay connected by being present with people who are right in front of you. I’m learning when I’m being fully present, there really can be joy in the midst of it all, light in darkness and peace in the storms of life. Prayer: Lord thank you for being present. You are always paying attention to what’s going on in my life. Please help me to be present and remove any distractions that will hold me back today.
This year didn’t start off like other new years. This year started off with death for me. There was death in my family, death of a friend’s sibling, death of a sorority sister and death of a family pet. To hear about the death of a Los Angeles based rapper who I didn’t really know ,named Nipsey Hussle reminded me of it again. Death keeps happening and I discovered that it happens just as life happens. I admit I’ve remained silent about this subject for a long time. Nobody really likes talking about death and sometimes if we’re being honest, we don’t want to discuss certain realities about life too much either. Every funeral I’ve attended there has been a look back over someone’s life. Stories of life events were shared bringing both laughter and tears. It’s so important to live your life daily to the fullest because others are watching, records are being kept and tomorrow is not promised to anyone. In the midst of my sorrow over all these different losses I found some reasons to keep living. My first reason was knowing God is in control of my life. God sets the timer. God is my strength and eternal hope. My second reason was to be a blessing and help others wherever I go. Life can go on after death and if God wakes me up in the morning, that exactly what I plan to do. Keep going and keep living no matter how bad or unexpected the news is. There is good news for today, I can live abundantly with God who is my comfort and so can you.
Sometimes I think certain things are just not possible for me to do. I try but I just can’t seem to make as much progress as I would like to. I start to think this is impossible. Recently, I struggled to put a drawer back in the refrigerator after cleaning it out. The drawer got stuck and I kept trying to force it back in it’s space, but it was impossible. The final score was Refrigerator: 1 Me: 0 I lost and I didn’t really understand why the drawer I took out would not go back in. I finally gave up because it just didn’t make sense to me. I stepped back and thought about how living healthy, living financially fit, living spiritually fit and keeping relationships alive at work, home and church can seem impossible to manage at times. It could be like that drawer in my refrigerator and trying to force things back into place is not always the best course to take. Sometimes you have to pull things out, throw away old stuff, and even put things aside for a minute and reconfigure life. I’ve learned to examine myself but never give up, because it seems impossible. I know that with God all things are possible!
Have you ever heard the words “that’s a wrap?” The year 2016 is almost a wrap. The holiday season is over, the new year is approaching. As I begin to look back and reflect on my life I wonder did I make a difference, did I give my all? Did I let things that went viral cause me to spiral? I’ve had some viral moments of internal thoughts in my head blowing things out of proportion, I’ve made mistakes and poor decisions, I’ve spoken words that I can’t take back. I’ve had some distractions and disappointed myself and others. I have had successes and failures for sure this year. I have fallen down and gotten back up. I have lived both on and off pitch. I trust God and I know all too well that living purposefully on pitch for Him has everything to do with trusting and believing. He is in every moment with me and still in control even when I am spiraling out of control. To stay in tune with the Master I must keep going, keep trying, keep believing. I pray that God will allow me another chance next year to do better and keep living purposefully on pitch because I certainly want to. How are you wrapping up the year? What are some of your takeaways?